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Dream The Impossible

Every 4 years, the world’s most exceptional athletes gather in a new location to display their athletic talents.

The Summer Olympic Games is the single most exciting event in my opinion. The sheer excellence associated with being an OLYMPIAN is something I could only ever dream about. The excitement, build up, and energy associated with watching someone who has put their everything into the last four years for their moment is something I can’t even put into words.

As a child, it was one my biggest dreams to one day be an Olympian!

Perfect 10!

I’ve had fleeting moments of possibility with chances in 2008 to join the Junior U.S. Rowing camps and in 2011 at tryouts for the U.S. Bobsled team, but it never transpired to anything unfortunately.

The other day my mom sent me a message and it reminded me to “Dream the Impossible, Until it’s Your Reality!”

Dream the Impossible, Until it’s Your Reality!

I’m not quite sure how I’m going to make it the Olympics, but if I ever get the chance……Yeaaahhhh buddy!


Side note: I’ll take working for the Olympics as a small consolation prize aka DREAM JOB!

It encompasses everything I love: Sports, Travel, Entertainment, Passion & Honor.


Until next time,

Grind Hard Live Fit


Embrace Them Thighs

So often women are bombarded by images of super skinny women whose thighs never seem to touch.

And for whatever reason we as women try to achieve this even if it involves unhealthy manners.

Well I’m here to let you know if your thighs touch it’s okay!

My thighs touch, my friend’s thighs touch, my mom’s thighs touch, and probably 99% of women’s THIGHS TOUCH!

The women of Girls Gone Strong

Elisabeth Akinwale– aka badass Crossfitter!

Dove Skincare campaign for Real Beauty


Yours truly!

Get the picture?! 🙂

For me it’s easier to embrace that my thighs touch because it represents a strong, powerful base but for others it’s a little more difficult so check out what Juli Bauer of PaleOMG has to say….

Here’s a raw,uncut article I found by Juli on “Embracing Them Thighs

Until Next Time,

Grind Hard Live Fit

Stronger than Yesterday

Nutrition Challenge Results:
Ok so I’ve officially completed the Whole30 Nutrition challenge and below is a look at my results! Going into the final weigh-in I was kind of nervous and felt like a contestant on the biggest loser…hahaha (side-note: I hate that show)
I joked around that I was doing a last chance workout at the office by tap dancing, LOL. It definitely burned atleast 1 calorie!!
Anywho, all jokes aside I was pretty happy with my results and as I’ve stated all along with the challenge my biggest moments were when I started to feel like “Me” again!
I’ve decided to support some friends who wanted to do the challenge for another 30 days, so I’m still in sugar, grain, & dairy rehab until August 10th.
We have started our own blog at 30daystogorgeous.wordpress.com


Ok so the fist bump of the week for me comes from today’s workout which was a lovely couplet!

WOD: Rope n Run
1600m run
4 rope climbs – 18ft mark
1200m run
3 rope climbs
800m run
2 rope climbs
400m run
1 rope climb

Ok so I’ve only been doing Crossfit WOD’s at an affiliate for 8 weeks and today was a HOORAH moment for me!
I can remember the day when I was sitting, watching other classes climb the rope with ease. I can also remember the day I tried to climb survive the rope and just ended up holding on for dear life and flailing awkwardly. I can also remember the time I had to scale the workout to the 10ft mark because I got tired so quick and didn’t want to risk plummeting to the ground! Then I started to string together 1-2 climbs to higher marks, 12ft & 15ft. Even here it was quite the challenge for me to do consecutive climbs. So to be where I am today, climbing consecutively to the 18 ft mark is much more than HOORAH it’s a HELL YEAH!!!
By the time of the last climb I scurried up the rope so fast I shocked myself!

So this type of performance progression combined with my physical changes are what keeps me motivated to be STRONGER THAN YESTERDAY!!

Until next time,
Grind Hard Live Fit

Let’s Chat!

Nutrition Challenge
Well the end of week 4 of the Whole30 nutrition challenge has come and today was supposed to be “weigh-in” day, but the lady who does the screening was sick so it’ll have to wait for a few more days. Looks like I’ll be having sweet potatoes for breakfast a little bit longer 🙂
The post-challenge physical benchmark testing is tomorrow & the screening is set for Tuesday evening so hopefully I’ll know my results by then.
I’m thinking of extending the Whole30 for another cycle with some friends from my gym & see what it brings!
If you’re interested in joining let me know!!
This week was a little out of the ordinary due to the holiday, so I was able to relax a bit more & work less!
Things will probably be getting hectic soon at Fashletics, since “boss lady” will be out of town at the CrossFit Games that are happening this upcoming weekend. I just hope I don’t go in one day and Alex & I see that there’s like 500 orders. Haha. While it’s awesome for business, that would be insane.
Only 3 more weeks of summer school & then I get a “break” for a month!!! We had to watch a movie called Lord of War with Nicolas Cage. Very interesting & recommended.
I also have entered the “Summer of the YES!” which basically is a thing between my friends & me where we do things that we normally would’ve said, “I’d never do that!”
Some things will be shared here and some things won’t. 😉
It will basically entail dating & my journey away from Team Single, adventures, spur of the “momentness”, & living life to the fullest!
Should be a fun ride 🙂
A year ago today I decided to cut off all my hair and start “new”. I remember when it was SUPER short and I could barely grab any hair, now it’s a mini-fro and when it’s stretched it reaches down to my eye!
Side by side comparisons are on my instagram @kendraj86
Friday & Saturday were HEAVY volume days!
• Clean & Jerk skill work building up from 53lbs to 113lbs, working on getting under the bar and my split jerk. I felt less awkward with the clean so that’s good, the squat is easy for me, the jerk just needs practice.
5 rounds for time of:
9 DB Hang Squat Cleans
200m run with 40lb sandbag
12 Handstand Pushups
305 Challenge:
We had a little challenge at the box for the fastest partner 5K row switching every 500m with a free t-shirt as the prize!
Brings me back to the ol’ glory days….haha. But yeah the competitive energy was flowing and so after the workout I did the challenge too. I was constantly checking the online scoreboard to see the results….Luckily our scores held up and we won for the fastest mixed team @ 305!! Yeah buddy T-shirts!!! LOL
Needless to say after all that I crashed on the couch and barely moved.
• Lifting
Snatch: skill work/progression
I’m working on keeping the bar close to my body and getting a full hip extension & again getting under the bar.
This movement is still new to me so I go light working from 43lbs and up in increments of 5’s.
Front Squats: I’m a lot stronger here just b/c I’ve put more time into it. Goal was to do 4 sets of 4; started at 110 and went up in 20lb increments. I got to rep 2 @ 170 & decided to rack it. Another day!
• WOD: partner 3 min AMRAP of:
Pull ups
Then 1 min rest
Deadlifts (225/185)
Then 1 min rest
Prowler sled push with 90lbs.
• Midline: Hollow rocks and rocking supermans.
Needless to say Sunday rest day was well earned. I thought I would be a lot more sore but I feel good!
Well things will be getting back to “normal” slightly this week, so I’ll see how my energy levels hold up.
Until next time,
Grind Hard Live Fit

Take the Challenge

It seems like every post I make I start off with, “I haven’t written a blog post in forever”. Oh well life happens!

Life is busy, busy, busy

I’m in school, working and hitting the gym.

I have 6 weeks left of summer school in one class and 2 days left in another class….CAN NOT WAIT!

I’m working 40 hours/week at an office (slow death)

I’ll hopefully be starting a new internship soon, which I’m very excited about!! (Details to come)

I train between 5-6 days per week, depending on how my body feels.

Since April I’ve been going to a “new gym” It’s not your typical globo-gym though. I’ve started doing CrossFit and I’m addicted! I’m a member at CrossFit 305 and it’s a perfect fit for me.

For me CrossFit works better than bodybuilding. Lots of people have their opinion on the subject and that’s perfectly fine, but I do what’s best for me 🙂

The thing I like best about CrossFit is that it feeds my competitive, athletic nature. I found with bodybuilding there was more of an aesthetic goal versus a performance goal. I’m challenged daily with a group of people where some are stronger than others but we push each other!

I have several goals with my training and I’m very excited about them. I’m very interested in learning new lifting techniques such as the olympic lifts, gymnastics skill work, and overall strength & endurance and this allows me to do so.

Some people have asked if I will be doing anymore fitness/bodybuilding competitions and the short answer is…not right now. It just doesn’t interest me. It was a fun experience, I met a lot of great people but I just don’t “love” it right now.

I am currently on Day 1 of a nutrition challenge with my box and it adheres to the Whole 30 nutritional guidelines.
It’s a 30 day challenge to change the way you eat and enhance your health.

I’ve been doing nutritional programming for a few weeks now via Leigh Ann Yeagerso the challenge won’t be a huge adjustment for me. I’ll just have to make a few changes, with the main one being grains. I’ve eaten oatmeal for breakfast every day for the better part of 2.5 years so this will be interesting, haha.

I enjoy working with Leigh Ann because she’s supportive of my goals & interests.

The challenge includes a pre & post body scan so it’ll be interesting to see where my numbers fall in July.

Other than that not much else to report…hahaha

That’s what friends are for

I recently found myself getting into a funk and got some much needed “words” from a few friends. 🙂

One from a guy friend who bluntly put like guys often do, “Girl bring your butt! You need to be training on ALL cylinders like a swim suit bodybuilder!” “I’m here to motivate and be a partner for your goals.” I couldn’t help but laugh & think to myself, “Thank you!”

One from a girl friend: She messaged me frazzled about life and trying to balance it all. I usually can give great advice but if I were to echo my own advice that would be a good start too. I told her, “Try focusing on one area and make small goals within that.”
Our areas of focus are Career, Personal and Physical (Fitness) life. For me I’m planning on focusing on Physical, then Career, then Personal. The amount of confidence you carry when you, “Look good, feel good” might be vain & shallow to most but for me it isn’t.

She then told me her mini-goals within the main goal and asked me mine and I replied, “Oh…. idk.” This was NOT okay…lol. She blurted out NO, you have to know or how else will you know how you’re doing. Touché!

So my mini-physical goal is to lose 10 lbs. by the end of March! That’s 43 days away! I know in order to do this I have to be consistent with my nutrition, training and recovery.

So maybe you’re in a funk of your own or struggling to make your goals a reality. Try breaking them up into mini-goals and setting concrete, tangible goals and then tell someone about them! I really feel the last step is crucial, having others who support you aware of what you’re working on makes you more accountable.

That’s all for now….

Grind Hard Live Fit

Updates Round 1

Well it’s been about a week into my training and this is my report:
• I haven’t done an “official weigh-in” (I moved the scale so I could sweep)
• I haven’t measured my body with my handy dandy tape (except my boobs…lol random)
• I have taken ZERO progress pics (except the goofy, fun faces in the mirror) O_o
Most people will think this is a set-up for failure but it has been just the opposite.

Here’s why:
• I buttoned up an old pair of pants that were once way to tight.
• I have given my mind a mental break from the fuckery that was food & body obsessed guilt.
• I have been busy living life!

So all in all that looks like a WIN, WIN, WIN 🙂

Random P.S.: I know the “stigma” is that if you reveal your wish it won’t come true but….IDGAF (<– figure it out, try Google).
Anyway, every time I come across the clock at "11:11" I wish for: Health, Happiness and Courage!

Good Night, Good Morning!


Searching for balance

It’s been quite awhile since my last blog, but i need some self-therapy…<< this is inspired by someone I've never met or spoke to, who frankly and honestly put her thoughts into words.

It's kinda hard to write about how u feel u have failed and then put it on a public platform, but putting it out there is the best way to de-stress.

Well 2011 is almost over and 2012 will be here and quite frankly I still can't believe how fast this year went. It's been a very tough year for me, mentally & physically.

2010: I was flying high on life. I had regained myself physically by shedding around 40lbs and was making strides to better myself by moving, going back to school & becoming more independent.

The end of 2011: I’ve been slipping and sliding HARD. I fell swan-dived off the wagon and feel trapped in my fat self again. And no I’m not talking about the oh i gained 5 lbs woes. You would think by this time around I would’ve realized mid sabotage. I think the hardest part is knowing what to do but getting in your own way over and over again. There’s no part of me right now that’s the former super fit, ripped athlete. Since I made my last “transformation” I have gained a lot of fitness friends and quite frankly sometimes I wish I wasn’t surrounded by such fit people. I feel like an imposter & uncomfortable again. :-/

•It will take a lot of discipline and hard work to regain ME! (motivation)

Round 3: I’ll have to figure it out solo since I will no longer be using a coach. Part of this honestly terrifies me because before I had a very specific plan with meals, workouts and a fitness professional to bug whenever I needed. But plenty of other people have done it solo and I can too. It would be really easy for me to pick up another “coach” but I haven’t come across anyone yet i don’t think will put me through dietary and cardio hell. And honestly it would be a waste of my time and their time too b/c I already know I’m not doing 10-20 hours of cardio a week and eating fish and broccoli at every meal and not lifting heavy to help “slim me down”. I do have one person that I would like to use when I’m ready. For now I’m just doing what I’ve done in the past and depending on the next few upcoming weeks I guess I’ll see. Looking to enjoy training and fueling again. Ideally I would love to compete again but if it happens in 2012 I’m not totally sure. I need to regain a positive image before I can worry about competing.

School: Well when all your friends are just mere months away from graduation or moving on to their awesome jobs and your tunnel seems an eternity long it kinda sucks A LOT! I have about another 4 semesters left until graduation & then I will be throwing myself into the “real world” with a whole new set of worries to greet me 🙂 Although 4 semesters might not seem like a lot I feel like it is.

•May 2013, Dual-Masters Graduate: M.S. Sport Management & MBA!!! (motivation)

Personal: Aside from my non-existent dating life and extremely limited social life I’ve gotten to hang out with myself a lot. 🙂

•I feel once I’m in a better place the other 2 will fall into place. (motivation)

Job: Well technically I go to an office 5 days a week but I don’t really get a check. Haha. I work at my school and they pay my tuition so I guess you can look at it is a check in that way. Some days are better than others and some days I’m looking for the quickest way out! I’m really needing my time here to pay off for me career wise, so I can feel my partial misery was at least worth it. No joke I got an e-mail one day and had a complete breakdown. Like tears and total frustration and extreme home sickness <Who Am I?!?
I NEVER get emotional or homesick so this was a tough day to say the least.
But the whole moolah situation is pretty non existent which is not good.

•Hoping to apply for a job this summer to relieve some of this stress (motivation)

I cannot go through 2012 the same!

Making some mini goals for 2012:
•Healthy, fit, positive Me
•Finish the school year strong!
•A job to help with bills

*deep breathe*
Time to Grind Hard and Live Fit!

I won’t be hungry!

Someone asked the question the other day….

As a competitor do you plan prep/comp around your life or your life around comps?

For me I plan prep around my life. There is ALWAYS something coming up that makes the “prep life” less than ideal. Whether it’s a special event, dinner with friends, work, school, LIFE. So I always have to plan ahead to ensure I’m staying on track.

This week I just happen to have a work event that will require me to be away for several days. The first thing I think about is how many meals, where will I train, what will I have to adjust in my schedule to make it all fit?! Usually anything over 24 hours makes me wanna poke my eye out since each additional day means prepping 6 more meals. LOL. I loathe meal prep!

BUT it’s life and if I want to achieve my goals I gotta “Suck it up, Buttercup!”

So that leads me to tonight! Most people are enjoying the last bit of their weekend by lounging on their couch or relaxing. ME? hahahaha I’m in the kitchen with the radio blasting trying to make meal prep as fun least miserable as possible. Once I get in a groove things begin to run like a well oiled machine and in the end I’m glad that I won’t have to think about packing food for the next several days!

There are several things I’ve realized with having to plan for “eating on the road”:

  • I can eat ANYTHING cold!
  • If I have a spoon/fork it’s a good day!
  • My day is surrounded by a  crap ton of Ziploc baggies and plastic Tupperware
  • I will NOT be hungry due to a lack of meals!

On the road again….

So if you travel often & are using it as an excuse to ruin all your previous hard work…..find a new excuse because “that ish ain’t cutting it!”


Grind Hard Live Fit 🙂

Flip the Switch!

Sometimes it’s good to re-visit the past to remind you of what you’ve accomplished and to keep you motivated for the future!

I’m not quite sure what it is but I have these moments where the I “Flip the Switch” and feel unstoppable and motivated.

Make today that day for YOU! 🙂
This just so happens to be my story….and this too!

Before #1 2008 This was after college.

After #1  2008 I was so excited to see that I actually do have abs!

Before Round 2  2009 Smacked by reality after a summer of little activity & lots of cookies!

After #2 2010-Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would look like this, good thing I have crazier dreams 😉

Just a little reminder that it’s never to late to start, never to late to pick yourself up after you fall, and never to late to want MORE!


Grind Hard Live Fit 😉